not-belongingness.

It makes me so fxxxing vulnerable and lonely and depressed, watching TLW at Lunar New Year.

Season 5 Episode X. Alice didn't understand why Tasha had to stay in an organisation that hated who she was.

And I am staying in a community / society / field / profession that hates who I am. Let alone my dear F-A-M-I-L-Y. It feels like sitting on a needle carpet（如坐針氈） every time a la la topic pops up in our daily conversation. (e.g. 家暴條例！）

(Not staying in a religion that REALLY hates who I am makes me feel better, but it doesn't help much. )

It wouldn't be painful unless the needle really pinches you. 針不拮到肉是不知道痛的呀！

昨日情歌

這個組曲應該一點超越原唱的意味都沒有吧。第二、三和四首都是我們這代人很重要的歌哦（對，我們這一代已經老到可以成為一「代」了，誰叫我們開始用「以前誰誰誰就一定不會令自己如此這般丟架」來表達對紅到爆人物的不屑），都會三不五時在KTV點唱的曲目。至於第一首《無言花》，不瞞你說，就是它讓我在舖頭仔踟躕半小時後決定掏出百多塊把唱片帶回家的。

這些曲目因為聽久了，歌詞曲調都有點像唸口簧，裡面的情調早就滑了啞。可是靜茹卻唱得像某個在KTV動了真感情唱歌的友人....... 曲終時大家都像沒事人般，心頭的唏噓/怔忡/啦啦卻是怎麼都騙不了自己的。

悅目

像張榕容或是土屋安娜的容貌，要說有多美麗就有多美麗。

她們看起來都像陽光。